Moody :(

I hate it when you don't give me a chance to talk and you try to conclude your own conclusion and make me feel like one dumb bitch. When will you actually start listening to my god damn explanation ? It makes me so angry that I feel like punching your face, but yet I keep my mouth shut and say sorry for your sake. It is because I don't wish to fight and argue. Why can't you see that I'm changing to be the old Shaby that you know, the one who use to be patient no matter how bad you use to hurt her and break her apart. I'm trying so hard, because I want you to be the last man in my life. I want to marry you and lead a happy life, but yet sometimes I tell myself that one day I'll let you go, because you deserve more, not a bitch like me. But I love you, I love you a lot that I might just die if I take one step away from you. No matter how much you say that I'm dumb and stupid, I'll still love you more day by day. I know I'm fucked up. I'm sorry. :( I hope sometimes you'll give me space to talk out my heart a lil instead of just shouting at me. After all I'm a normal woman too, I need attention and all your love. I know that you love me lots. I just want to be a good girlfriend and wife in the future. I miss you.